Have you ever wandered why you have not been invited to something? To put it bold I did not want or care if you were their. My desires to do something is not revolved around if others are going to come or not. Christ only needs you, but you must listen and know @ times you need others.
I have this desire to just be alone with my God and although that is ok to some extent. It must only be when you are seeking his direction not when you are avoiding his direction. So don't justify avoiding someone under the authority of GOD. he does not speak that way.
We must invite those we have adversity with and welcome them to our table, to our life, to our home, to our soul, to our world. I am having such a difficult time in completing this now.
I am not in that room, because you are their. I am not in this room, because you are their. Avoidance is not inviting. It is destructive!!! To all your siblings your spouse your children your etc. It is mindfully and continuously headbreaking/heartbreaking.
I find being surrounded by something I desire to avoid, is not pushing through the direction God sent me. It is going around the direction. I will reach my destination, but I will not be reaching Gods destination.
Go spend time with the one you do not want to because if it is to resolve your heart must grow fonder of the person.
I want to invite those I do not desire to be with @ this point in my life, but in all honesty I can't get the invivtation out. I have closed myself off, I am seeking more daily to be alone and that is not Christ Like.
My pain is of the heart and the head is messing with it even more.
yet Christ speaks to me " If I did not invite you, where would you be now?"
I pray I send the signals of the invitation to those I avoid. I know it will bing me a sense of completeness, I just have to stop being senseless.
