I never thought I was a mosaic only a picture,

Some really painful days have been mixed with exhillirating moments. today God sifted me again and I made a really tuff choice. I let my child fall to the hands of grace, and pray he seeks it. A mom is meant to love and protect, it is difficult to realize your love and protection is sometimes not under the full authority of GOD. We as a mom/ parent must let go when it is needed. Some things are not intended to be fixed, it must remain broken. Which makes me grit my teeth and tighten my jaw muscle, only to swallow and feel the pain. I feel the urge to scream "really GOD is this what you want for me, my family, my son" But his spirits arises within and I don't need to question anymore.


He points me to the mother from the book of Matthew 15:21-28 and Mark 7:24-30 I am the mom as she was the mom with a child whom is "out of his mind " To hard to imagine that I can get the faith to resolve if it is his plan" I desire it ,but the question is does GOD desire it to resolve. Perhaps! and that must be a complete answer I settle on. Becoming the full Sephonician mom is how I seek to come to my Lord.

I am a firm beliver that some forms of sin are deeper in the soul, some are of the head and some to the core, as some is the seed itself. It takes love, compassion, patience and surrender to endure the pain, when the sin of others has a direct influence upon your life. Of course some of these are easy to implement, so long as you have no great history with the sinner. But it is about the connection , and that is what Christ intends it to be about. If you do not make connections then you are not seeking Christ. So, realize a child, a husband ,a father, a mother in -law a brother is a connection and sometimes great pain can come from these connections.Yet you can't put the puzzel of your life GOD has in place, if you miss or avoid picking one piece up to see if it fits. Completion is sometimes the corner piece, sometimes the jagged piece, sometimes the center piece. In completing the masters piece that is your heart it will take many hours working on this puzzel just keep it out on the table and work it daily.

At the age of 40 plus I am close to looking like a Thomas Kincade painting, but yet still so far away from it. I don't question my price in the art gallery anymore. i am priceless ,I am his, and he has created a one of a kind with flaws and they are created by GOD.

When Mosaic Church was started 2 years ago I knew it was intended to bring a joyful noise, sometimes joy is "crying ",and I certainly have done my share of that.

yet now I get it Mosaic is me, a mom in pain, a wife healing, a daughter forgiving, a sister seeking. I am not the picture just a piece of his puzzle.

Sandy