How close are you to being "Mother Theresa"

So this evening I was driving home thinking about whom I spend time with and the best time I can recall is spending time with my sisters, I have 3 and have been blessed to talk with two of them very frequently almost daily. Do you think perhap's that is too much? In my youth I would have been the first to say,"I would prefer to be with my friends" But, as I grow in my walk with CHRIST I have some what of a clearer understanding that friends are sisters/ brothers in Christ and family/ siblings are or should be the same. We have this earthly thing that is meant to be a heavenly thing. I mean GOD directs us to do as his son Christ did, some have taken that so literal that it could have been to the extreme (he never abandoned his mother or father cousins ,he simply did not let them direct his path). Yet Mother Theresa I am not. I love my sisters and they are a big part of my daily life. They hold me accountable. I can be upfront and say I would have a difficult time never talking with them, and would almost feel a sense of abandonment if I didn't speak with them on my drive to work. We must balance family and GOD time ,it is imperative to put your circle almost to a box.

Four corners I started drawing the box because the circle never takes me to the destination (I in a sense feel like the dog whom chases his tail never getting what I am seeking). Say your morning is like mine. Get up fix breakfast, dressed leave for work and then talk with your sisters on an average 4 days a week, during your commute,that is where the line begin I then draw it straight across to my next corner work,(I am learing still daily to put GOD in my mix and sometimes it is simple and sometime it is so fleshly difficult) in making it to the next corner I have the opportunity to witness and also to be descipled to by an average of 30 people daily. I have been doing a pretty good job over the past few months. For example one patient needed to be seen and they had no money, I am blessed to be in the position to have an influence over physicians and my opinion matters to them. So the patient was seen the physican is the hero and GOD get's the GLORY,and I am ok never even seeing the patient just being a part of the joy.That corner also took me to a patient this week whom I had spoken with that was having a difficult time with ill family and she herself was ill, but out of town and needed some medicine,I volunteered to dive her some samples which was out of my routine commute. She was so gratefull and spoke such kind words about me to the entire office. I set the bar. Who was getting the glory from this. God!! Now it felt really good to know I played a part in her care,but one of the doctors came up to me and said "hey you really do a good job we are lucky to have you" I responded well yes you are soemwhat jokingly! But, it gave me such a rush and affirmation sometimes he wants you to share in his glory in the public. But, I am most ok with it not being public I enjoy helping others. Yet i read an evaluation the other day of mine from past employer and it said "she goes above and beyond for healthcare and for the love of others she helps nonstop I have been blessed to share life with her" I know and have been consistently affirmed that what I do does matter as it should . I so desire that others see in me I don't run in the same circle, but I get out of my box. Onward the trace of my box goes!!

Now onto the corner of my box,( drawing down) my staff and I went out to eat Christmas dinner together and I wanted to play a game. I asked them to write down their favorite movie and favorite book. Some were surprised when guessing mine because I did not put down the Bible. I put Velvet Elvis!! But, they all know where I stand.This corner takes me to co-workers people I have formed a bond with and am building relationships with. One in particulair has left my office she called me the other day because her husband is dying with cancer and simply wanted to share a few thoughts. One of those was it was so good to have a Christain Supervisor, and then she wanted me to pray for her.God is so amazing at this corner

Now across to the next corner is administration and politics! I have been blessed to work with some doctors and others whom share faith and sometime show their faults in this area like me. i certainly don't mind calling them on it. Perhaps I could be less bold sometimes and for sure less abrasive.I correct many just as Christ directs me it and they don't realize I am basing it on my on morals with Christ, not upon the ethical code, I am required to inforce as the business . I can share Christ and some may not even be realizing it in the beginning. I share frequent e-mails with one of my direct supervisor's she is a strong person of business power but, yet she came to me last week to pray before her work day. I truly know this woman is a tuff lady and some perhap's many would say she is to hard. But, she is honest and I so respect her values in the business world ,as they align with her moral and christain values.

Now up to the last corner before the box starts over. I love to spend time with my family, and I love to spend time reading about almost anything, But of lately it has been more of the Bible.It is or should always be in your box. I am learing to understand and educate myself more about the Bible.

So, next time you start your day find every opportunity to get of the circle and make a box. The song "I don't want to box you in" Is sometimes just the opposite of what we should do, because you could miss alot of opportunity to share Jesus, if you don't see the need to stop at the corner and go across,up, down and over for God.

I again am not Mother Theresa, but if you don't know the real story of her amazing life. Box yourself in and READ IT.

THE BEST THING COMES WHEN IT IS NEEDED, SOMETIMES!!

SO MANY RANDOM THOUGHTS GO THROUGH MY MIND IN ONE DAY. BUT, IT IS THE THINGS THAT I NEED SOMETIMES THAT GO IN MY MIND OVER AND OVER.


SOMETIMES I WISH IT WOULD SKIP THE THOUGHTS AND JUST COME MY WAY.

BUT YET MY GRASCIOUS SAVIOR REMINDS ME "IT WILL COME WHEN NEEDED, BUT IT MUST COME THRU ME/MY WAY. AND THAT IS SOMETIMES

YES THAT REALLY SUCKS! AND I WANT IT WHEN I WANT IT. I CLEARLY SEE MY FAULTS AND I AM NOT ALWAYS GOOD AT WAITING.

ITS LIKE I SAID AND EVEN ASKED FOR PLEASE AND YET i STILL DON'T SEE THE RESULTS FAST ENOUGH

FOR EXAMPLE WHEN I ASKED SOMEONE TO DO SOMETHING AND THEY DON'T GET IT DONE FAST ENOUGH, WELL THEN YOU JUST DO IT YOURSELF. I AM SEEING COMMUNICATION IS THE SOLID KEY TO EFFECTIVELY GETTING SOMETHING ACCCOMPLISHED. SO WHAT IF I ASKED ONCE ASKED AGAIN AND AGAIN.

AFTER ALL THAT IS WHAT CHRIST DOES FOR US HE ASKED AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN. BUT HE NEVER REVEALS HIS FRUSTRATION ONLY HIS LOVE. hE WAITS ON US WHILE WE WILL NOT WAIT ON HIM TO RESOLVE ISSUES.

TODAY SOME REALLY COOL THINGS HAPPENED AND LIKE LIGHTNING IT IS GOD SPEED WHEN THE RSOLUTION IS READY IT COMES.

COMPLETELY TO ERASE THE THOUGHTS FROM CONSUMING YOU, ONLY TO GIVE YOU A GLIMPSE OF THIS IS WHY I SAY SANDY LET ME DIRECT YOU AND YOU WILL FIND REST AND YOU WILL FIND THE TIMELY RESPONSE AND YOU WILL FIND THE ESSENCE OF WHAT " GOD DESIRES FROM ME" AND YOU WILL FIND INSIGNIFICANT THINGS DO NOT REALLY MATTER, YOU WILL FIND GREAT JOY IN GREAT SORROW
YOU WILL FIND CHRIST THOUGHTS WILL GUIDE YO AND CHRIST ACTION WILL RELIEVE YOU AND YOU WILL FIND SOME THINGS WILL STAY IN YOUR HEAD UNTIL GOD GETS THE OK FROM YOUR HEART TO CONTROL, THEN YOU WILL FIND RESOLUTION IS HIS PLAN NOT RESINTMENT. FAIRLY DIFFICULT TO SWALLOW EVEN ON A GOOD DAY.

LET ME REMIND YOU HE CONTROLS US AND YET WE CONTROL HOW HE INTERATCS WITH US. SEEK GOD

new soul,new body,my heart aches

So perhaps many recognize this southern gosple song lyrics, But if you do not then,the words alone tell a story. I know my story or autobiography if detailed would be a sad one thus far,but just the fact that my heart aches is painful to God, because he desires all of his people to have a happy heart, even in the face of diversity. I am digging deeper to find the spirit of Christ in this time of my life and I know it is a time. I faced a fear and now I face a season with Christ. I remind myself he has not abandoned me, now I can't abandon him.

I just can't see the old story of footprints in the sand. I have to view the foot that put it their. That is who I am, but not who I desire to be. I am longing for the grace that takes me through the season's of life no matter how they enter my life. I want them to exit the same, under the principal Christ did "endurance and faithfullness" I trust in him for those that are familiar, but when the new season is unfamiliar I shut down my Christ attitude and let Sandy the flesh start the season. An obstacle is intended to grow you as broad as Christ needs you. I am realizing I will have growth, as big as the east is from the west, as the north is from the south. Yet, I still resist every time it begins(to let God have complete control). perhaps God knows my heart and head still need some continous connections. I rest assured in that one day endurance will pay and the pain, of my heart will be new I will have a new body /where Christ is so settled into me that my internal compass stays directed to the NORTH star.

When you question GOD or question what does this mean to me. Just settle with it is of GOD and yes if it comes your way it is for you.

I would love to hear my grandmothers words of wisdom "ONE DAY I'LL HAVE A NEW SOUL"

Salvation is easy to get, hard to keep and difficult to loose ,no matter how long it takes me to realize every season is from GOD and I resist his power to handel it alone. he still allows me the grace to whisper "Sandy you will be just fine and I can handel just get yourself out of my way"

That is when you experience the new body, and the heart aches less each day. I firmly believe I will celebrate even the sad things under his spirit.