new soul,new body,my heart aches

So perhaps many recognize this southern gosple song lyrics, But if you do not then,the words alone tell a story. I know my story or autobiography if detailed would be a sad one thus far,but just the fact that my heart aches is painful to God, because he desires all of his people to have a happy heart, even in the face of diversity. I am digging deeper to find the spirit of Christ in this time of my life and I know it is a time. I faced a fear and now I face a season with Christ. I remind myself he has not abandoned me, now I can't abandon him.

I just can't see the old story of footprints in the sand. I have to view the foot that put it their. That is who I am, but not who I desire to be. I am longing for the grace that takes me through the season's of life no matter how they enter my life. I want them to exit the same, under the principal Christ did "endurance and faithfullness" I trust in him for those that are familiar, but when the new season is unfamiliar I shut down my Christ attitude and let Sandy the flesh start the season. An obstacle is intended to grow you as broad as Christ needs you. I am realizing I will have growth, as big as the east is from the west, as the north is from the south. Yet, I still resist every time it begins(to let God have complete control). perhaps God knows my heart and head still need some continous connections. I rest assured in that one day endurance will pay and the pain, of my heart will be new I will have a new body /where Christ is so settled into me that my internal compass stays directed to the NORTH star.

When you question GOD or question what does this mean to me. Just settle with it is of GOD and yes if it comes your way it is for you.

I would love to hear my grandmothers words of wisdom "ONE DAY I'LL HAVE A NEW SOUL"

Salvation is easy to get, hard to keep and difficult to loose ,no matter how long it takes me to realize every season is from GOD and I resist his power to handel it alone. he still allows me the grace to whisper "Sandy you will be just fine and I can handel just get yourself out of my way"

That is when you experience the new body, and the heart aches less each day. I firmly believe I will celebrate even the sad things under his spirit.