Last weekend I had a visit with a dear long time friend. Gosh I really miss her. She can always make me laugh and her just being who she is was one of the greatest things I love about her. I honestly felt so sad when she left its this natural high; followed by this natural lowish feeling. At least I did not cry this time. Friends are one of the coolest things a person could have in their life and no matter how many years pass I can always laugh over the same things we did.Patti you are one of my life lines next to Christ, I have been so blessed by your willingness to listen and just be brutally honest when I needed it.
One thing she did that I can never forget is that she talked me into trying to rollerblade( after a shot of tequila I CAN'T ROLLER SKATE,so needeless to say one shot of tequila one unsteady girl and rollerblades ;the floor called my name and down I fell- from upright in the blink of an eye to hugging the floor. thanks friend for the memories it was both en-dearing and en-during.
My visit with her this time was very personal. We shared frustrations over many things . But this time Patti was different she was so en-dearing. We talked about issues that are painful and issues that are well only what women talk about. She made a response to one of my statements and it has been in the front of my brain and on the tip of my tongue since her visit. Words stick and the wisdom of this new Patti was awesome. She told me "when someone hurts you I have learned to just accept it happens and the person whom hurts you is hurting also, Look at it like their pain must be real deep. She basically was saying just love the person and don't let it suck you dry on any given day. Wisdom and honesty sums her up.
So today was a day for being just as Christ commands and as my friend enlightened me accepting.
I visited with my son for several hours and it was both en-dearing and en-during. I see his pain and I see his love. I see Shawn like my wise friend enlightened me to.
I love being stretched for my soul to find it's place in me.
call your friends and call your love one more often.
I'm here!!!
ReplyDeleteOh Sandy! I read your blog, your thoughts and your generous comments regarding our visit. If I knew anything I said to you was helpful in any way on your search for understanding and peace, then I just simply couldn't be more grateful.
My friend, my sister...I read the pain in your written words and I see you on your journey. Thank you for letting me come here to read and know your personal thoughts.
It's funny, after 12 years of being gone, far away and separated from what I called my home - in FL - and the only dear and personal connections I had, as in you as my closest friend (and after reading your blog)...we are in/on different places/paths, but yet they are the same. You have embraced organized religion and I have detached myself from it. First I rejected it, with anger and disappointment (and not just organized religion, but many of lifes realities.)
Then I stood observing "it," without judgment like a scientific experiment...wanting to learn, wanting to understand and seeking Truth. I find it helpful to visualize myself in a white lab coat, looking down upon the humans from an elevated view. When I wear the white lab coat, it signifies that I observe without emotion, without judgment. Our human emotions are pre-programmed into our species and they create obstacles, illusions and distractions all run by the engines of our minds. I can access different information/knowledge/understanding/views when I am in the "neutral" position - no emotion, no judgment. It's there that you can see a Truth. But only on a clear day!!
When you can experience and know the ESSENCE of something, it is there where you will find Truth. And know this, our language is entirely inadequate to accurately describe "other things," but this will have to do b/c it is all we have to try and translate.
My eyeballs are hurting now so I'll close here on my comments and thank you again for letting me in here. I regard your blog as a very personal place for you and a select few have access to these private communications. Think about my idea of setting up another blog for the both of us where we can reeeeally run our mouths okay! We'll be chatting soon Girl! I love ya and I miss you!
Patti