When your love must change.

I am in the midst of a failling marriage and not sure I want to fight for it anymore.

I have often heard couples comment I love him but I am not in love with him. I was so perplexed by this message and have never under stood it.

This describes me and my feelings! you loose the butterflies, you loose the goose bumps and then you loose the heart.

That is my message from God.

When a marriage is falling like a full bag of Reeces Pieces, it is all good until the bag is gone, the sweetness leaves you and you hold an empty bag longing for the fullness of just the flavor.

I love my husband, but he has lost the flavor!!!

I must endure because God commnands that of me. I want to be the wife that keeps him going to buy the next bag, and sample the sweetness, God provides between a husband and a wife.

He has such a huge heart and a wounderful smile and a great compassion for nature and his dog and others, he is a great provider.

What he does not have is the will to fight the last fight, go through the valley to see the peak with Christ. He believes in God, but does not live in God.

His life is not evident that he lives with God. So, that is why I am summoned to endure my empty bag, the loss of flavor.

Christ commands that we divorce under certain terms. I firmly know I would be in his grace just as well, if I walked away. But, then I would have lost the battle, gone through the valley only to see the peak on the other side without my husband.

I choose him and then I choose God second. In all honesty if I had choosen God with a full spritiual mind and heart, then choose my husband; This battle would be different.

But it isn't different.

This is the time in my life when my love must change. In the beginning I loved God, but was not in love with him.

Now I am in Love with God and love my husband. I am having a very difficult time fightning the battle. But God has burdened me that he loves my husband now and he longs for him to come unto him. He desires for him to love his son ,before me(his wife), once he loves Jesus Christ I will feel the fullness and sweetness of renewed marriage,a renewed heart.

I consider divorce an admission of not trusting God and not being willing to change my love.

I will forgive and Jesus commands so much more of me.

So be fully aware of "When your love must change"