I break ! you are broken

It has been a lengthy time since my last blog, but it was supposed to be my way of healing and I opted to put the band aid on for a while. Since then I have healed some and hence the blogging resumes. Today I par took of communion at Mosaic and it was awesome! We were instructed to refelct on the past year or so and see if we needed to settle issues of the head /heart (so to speak). I reflected and it felt relatively good to be at peace with some past difficulties. I saw my brother a little over a week ago. I was surprised at how easy it was to hug him and more surprised at how much relief I felt, as he left. Some family's have issues that are not easy to face and this past month I have faced fear like a lion. I am the leader of the pack in Gods view. He commanded me to settle issues and I would grow. WELL I LISTENED. I have questioned why I waited 4 years to act upon his commands in my life. It is simple I wa snot wear I needed to be in my realtionship with Christ for it to be settled in the method it should have been. I wanted to settle it coming out swinging,Christ wanted me to settle it with his method "coming out with love and forgiveness" I am now a firm beliver that God has this crazy kinda control over me that I really I see more and more " Is in the best interest of Sandy"

I also went to spend Christmas Eve with my in-laws this year and it was a good time. It has been 14 years since we spent Christmas eve together. I loved the smile on my husbands face and the one that came across his fathers /sisters and niece face when we showed up. I was most reluctant to even entertain this mingling with the inlaws (because of past pain from interaction with some of them) Again it was in the best interest of Sandy. A chess move so to speak! I am so grateful for the times I listen and act without hesitation.

I am proof if ever needed he will bring you through some really difficult times. So when you take communion. Is your head and heart clear. Don't waste 4 or 14 years trying to do it your way.

BECAUSE to be somewhat cliche communion is not a game it is for real. asked yourself this question if you were facing the choice to put your life down for someone you loved could it be or would it be like Christ did? For you must know he went with the attitude of I BREAK! you are broken.

I love this moment in time!!!!!!!!!!! I still have some issues to fix that are broken!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but the wait is over. I am working on them.